IN THE CINEMA
from Reggae Chicken zine
by Huggy Bear

DREAM, OR AWAKE OR, DREAM ?? OR A W A K E. . . IN THE CINEMA
I noticed them cos I was being quiet and these kids were shouting at the advertisements and i was thinking oh i should move to another seat BUT I COULD HEAR WHAT THEY WERE SAYING really clear it wasn’t like dum dum SHOUTING it was like abstract criticisms sort of funny, even sort of sad like they believed thy could reach beyond the screen,, anyway the film ended and i followed them out " i rub my eyes each morning.. im sure theres some extra membrane ive got to lose ..its some pre-ventative thing ..i just know im not feeling anything enough even if im fighting it i rub at my eyes each morning when i was younger i used to be able to make myself cry..."
GNASHING TEETH SADDEST LOOKS,,, i follow them as they walk through leicester square where the winter fairground is still in operations but its empty,, now and then one of them does a little series of dance steps and then carries on to catch up with the others i try to remember each little dance but i know if i try practising them there and then ill lose them Q-IS THIS HOW GIRLS DANCE -OR IS THIS HOW BOYS DANCE?? the steps seem relieved by some fire and aggression without physical contact?? its like that cool SONIC youth dance in the café scene in hal hartleys 'SIMPLE MEN' i know the new kids need lots of new dance steps. i feel CREEPY WATCHING THEM BUT I
CANT STOP IT IF FOLLOW THEM
WHERE????? INTO A ....BOOKSHOP BUT WHY DOES IT HAVE
all this LOUD MUSIC PLAYING NOT the classical thing its normally classical
THEN IN SIDE ALMOST STRAIGHT AWAY ALL THE MUSIC STOPS
.....i know this must be because im concentrating
THEY ARE LEAVING SECRET MESSAGES INSIDE THE COVERS OF THE BOOKS have they successfully hypnotise spell,d a whole shop with their saddest looks gnashing teet??? i sneak up and read it the stuff their leaving an i replace them as i feel i must is this then my test my indoctrination I WANNA STEAL EVERYTHING NOWADAYS
THE MESSAGES SAY THINGS LIKE
........"THIS BOOK YOU HOLD IS VERY GOOD .....AT UPHOLDING CONTEMPORARY CULTURE AND THAT CULTURES RESISTANCE TO ANY SORT OF EMOTION ...ENJOY..."
"YOU STINK ...SO WHY BOTHER????...."
"I LOVE THIS... THEREFORE I LOVE YOU.. I LOVE YOU UNREASONABLY/I !!-HATE YOU UNFEASIBLY FOR READING THIS CHAINLINKS YET MORE STEREOTYPICAL SYSTEMS..... please leave me your message or address in tome of your choice and we,ll meet up"
"CONfuse all SQUares Now"

even more i loved these directives they secured in favoured books containing recipes for medicine combinations and dietary schedules for taking these combinations ,so there would be i guess on certain days kids on these missions to connect and recognise others like themselves perhaps even telepathically or most definetely by similar glazed gaze it was blowing hot and cold my throat was sore the thing they generated was this sort of freedom but a freedom to feel, a freedom to be they spoke loud at times fragments which sounded too intimate or raw to utter aloud but so refreshing i tried to guess at what haphazard doses of multi-vitamins ,cough cough medicines and medi-scenes learning stimulants and cold decongestants were they separated from the masses by now ????

OUTSIDE IT WAS THE NIGHT ?THEATRE GOERS WERE RUSHING FOR LAST TRAINS....
I feel so alone at times i long for a chance meeting, something double-jointed .....this "monkey business"
..... I GOT HOME AND ATE LIKE A HORSE ...HOW AUTHENTIC IS THIS LIFE??

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